Monday, 18 April 2016

Stepping into the Unknown


This week’s ‘out of the ordinary’ experience was really just one baby step towards a year long commitment that I’m sure will change my life for ever. 

As most of you know, I have always been someone who tries to follow my heart and intuition and often that has meant letting music be my compass.  I’ve realised in recent years, that my musical journey has been less of a career path and more like the thing that has guided my spiritual journey and personal growth.  Ever since I first started playing guitar and writing songs, (back when I was a painfully shy 20 year old) music has always challenged me to face my fears and it continues to help me to become the person I want to be.

For a long time now, I’ve had a nagging desire to use my creative skills to do something more meaningful.   Recording and performing is fun and I love it when people connect with my songs, but if I just think of it as the pursuit of a career, it sometimes feels like an empty, selfish road.  

Plus, long before music became the centre of my world, I dedicated many years of my life to working in human services, (such as being a youth worker and a carer) so there’s always been a part of me that feels the need to contribute to society in a meaningful way.  At the end of my life, I want to feel I’ve done my best to leave a little bit more love in the world, than there was when I found it.  

So, not long after casting my wish to the sky, (to do something more meaningful), I stumbled across an opportunity that seemed to fit, one that felt like the right path for me.  After some research and much contemplation, last Monday, I went to an interview to be considered as a volunteer at a Children’s Hospice – a residence for children with terminal illness. The age range is 0-19 years.  The idea is that I will engage the children in art and music related activities.  I start the intensive 2 month training in May and at the end of it, if all goes well, I will be committed to working for 4hours, once a week at the hospice.  

I know it will be a heart wrenching but heart expanding journey.  I’m completely frightened, and unsure of what to expect, but I know from experience that the more scared I am of something, the more I will learn from it, and the more it will help me to grow.

Wish me luck!

NN xx

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